tendousouji

2007-08-13T00:35:00.001+08:00

Goodbye Singapore, Hello Jakarta...

Gonna update tomorrow..today's just too tired to update one...

2007-08-01T00:05:00.000+08:00

Anyone wishes to guess how long I've not been updating my blog? haha well any regular readers of my blog..well not anymore since they've been bored to open my blog since it's been deserted for about three months or maybe more hahaha...my apologies, the internet in Jakarta seems to be the one whose been de-motivating me from updating my posts..

However, since I'm now in Singapore which internet speed seems to be 10 times faster than the one there in Jakarta..well whole Indonesia I suppose haha...myself can't believe too when I saw 7 digit numbers in the price list of an internet provider in Jakarta that provide a fast internet connection...well for your information, it's 4 million rupiah per month and what the hell, the internet speed is just half of the internet connection I'm using now for writing this post haha...

Well ignore that internet argument, now I gonna update what happened recently. Firstly, regular readers of my blog (lol..as if there's one) should be thankful and grateful to Fransiska Amelia a.k.a Sisikatkat who've been the main reason why I'm updating this post now haha..

On Friday 27th July, both my feet once again stepped on this island which full of memories.. The first thing to do after I'm out from Changi airport was to take a taxi to go Henderson Secondary School to fetch Miranda,Fransiska and Reagina..that's the taxi's first stop, the second taxi stop will be Miranda's home, the taxi dropped her and then the last stop will be Both Fransiska's and Reagina's hostel which is located in Pasir Panjang..hahaha yeah to anyone whose been unaware of this, I'm not staying in one room with my brother again in Singapore since there's no vacancy left there..so I decided to stay in this hostel..

The hostel is fine, at least it's above my imagination..haha I never though the hostel will be this big well it's not really that big..but oh well it's still above my imagination haha..afterall as long I've got a proper bed,pillow,bolster,water and most importantly INTERNET CONNECTION! haha..after that I took a bath first while waiting for the guardian of the hostel to arrive since she's expecting to see me(lol)..well what she want is to give me a receipt and telling me all the house-rules haha...and pheew what a curfew lol.

Anyway after I've changed my clothes and Siskat and Rea finished their bathing, we together then went out..oh for your information..I'm going to meet Miranda and Ardisa at Orchard since we'll be having dinner, while Siska and Rea are going to meet Jessica Utami in Harbour Front to have a sushi dinner haha...but both of them are kind enough to be willing to send me to the nearest MRT station which is the Harbour Front (lol)...then after that they left me since Jessica have been expecting them. Oh I almost forget to write about this... 3 minutes just after I walked out from the hostel, I slipped and I fell...luckily I'm able to hold my fall, but still there's still a scar in my right arm plus some bruises in my legs..well just call that it's the warm welcome from Pasir Panjang since I've been cruel enough to Pasir Panjang with the fact that I haven't visit Pasir Panjang at all in my eight years in Singapore haha..

All right skip the small parts..Stephanie,Leslie,Anthony and Eric came too. We were having dinner at Ichiban Boshi at Wisma Atria,Orchard. Eventually the other group who have been enjoying their sushi dinner came along too..haha wew the more the merrier. After we finished our dinner, we decided to visit the arcade at Plaza Singapura, oh yeah we played lotsa games such as Dance Dance Revolution, Time Crisis and whatever free throw shooting..and oh yeah in the same time, Eric was so happy that Maximum Tune 3 actually have been released.

After we've been worn out after playing all those games, we decided to call it a day..but hold on we didn't just call it a day, as what Siska always said (lol) ''there's no day without a photo" haha anyway i like this photo:

tendangaaan mauuuut!

Thanks to Miranda for arranging this outtings =)..

On the night, I just realised that THERE'S NO BLANKET and the room is frigging cold. During the confusion and worry-ness of being frozen, Siska came to my rescue by borrowing one of her blanket to me, though the blanket somehow a bit thin for me. However, that really saved me, thank youu Siskaat! =)

Moving on to next day, it's Saturday and I've wondering what I should gonna do for that day..However, I've promised with Siska that I'm gonna accompany her to have a breakfast in McDonald's East Coast..hahaha it's been a long time since I'm having that McDonald's Big Breakfast, well not to elaborate much of the breakfast, so i gonna skip that. After the breakfast, Siska pulled me to the playground since she's so fascinated with that watever climbing thing in that sandy playground haha but oh well it was fun, I'm enjoying it =)

We went home and thanks to the weather, we were caught in the rain, haha during that rain,I've realised that having a small umbrella isn't a good idea at all haha. Thanks to the rain, I've got flu. Since the hostel were having some meeting regarding their party on 18th August, so I've decided to join Miranda,Anita,Ardisa and Jessica Ang at Great World's Yoshinoya, practically they're studying, however, the temptation made them eat as well, count myself in too Xp. And for the evening, I went to Leslie's house to play basketball. There's Jessica Utami, Leslie, Eric, Ardisa, Miranda, Sandy(Jessica's brother) and eventually Siska and Steffi joined us too. After the basketball, we went to Great World to have our dinner.

Moving on to Sunday..Eric, Leslie and I decided to play pool in Kim Seng Plaza and eventually Cindy and Alfreda came..haha we played for about 2-3 hours and after Alfreda went home, we decided to have our dinner in Great World City's food court, in the same time Jenny joined us as well. However, since at the hostel there's someone starving, I decided to take away my own food and also bought a packet of chicken rice for Siska, I decided to take my leave and then quickly ran to the bus stop to wait for the bus. Waiting for the bus 175 is just so friggin long! I even reached the hostel just when the clock reached 10pm sharp..and anyway I'm really in fault to make Siska waiting for her dinner. We had our 'late' dinner after that.

Moving on to Monday, I went to Henderson Secondary to have lunch with Miranda and Anita at nearby chicken rice stall. Anita left for her art class and then Siska and Steffi came, Miranda and I decided to join them to go Bugis' Popular bookstore to buy some assesment books, and oh yes thanks to FRANSISKA for her acting and being unstoppable in calling out her own guardian name...zzzzzzzzzz stress dech!

After Bugis, Steffi and Siska left Miranda and I and so we continued to meet Jenny at Red Hill MRT station and then to fetch Cindy. Finally, we went to Leslie's house for basketball.

What the heck! It's 2.15 am already...
I gotta stop here now..
Siskat gara2 loe nich jadi tidur malam dech! grrrrrr!

Night..urm i mean morning everyone =)

2007-05-16T12:13:00.000+08:00

It's hilarious that life's is not what we always wanted..

Even though we've got that determination,confidence and hardwork..it's still hard to believe that the conclusion is not the same as what we think during the process, which means disappointment. Well, yeah what will you do when it came to this? It's surprising for me that I've been through this kind of disappointment and I've been able to cope with this, again through something unrelated such as laughing.

Yes, I do agree that love is sometimes painful especially when we've received some disappointment. We did lots of sacrifices and whatever it is, and yet even though we thought that we won that particular person's heart, eventually the result will come to NIL. Eiits! hold on, that's what many people think, but if we all should realise that it is rude to say that result is NIL.. Commonly, people will say that even though we've failed we will get some experience..fine, that's one of the reasons why it's not NIL, but the real reason why it's not NIL is that we need to appreciate on what they have done to you. Forget about the disappointment he/she gave to us, forget the painful past he/she gave to us, why not reminisce the events when he/she made us happy?..

It's rude that we actually forget all his/her good deeds or something that he/she have already done to make us happy.. The worst case if he/she did nothing good to us..well just the feeling itself (I'm referring to the feeling of liking him/her) is something that you should appreciate.. He/she might never care about on how we appreciate him/she or watever..but REMEMBER! this is for yourself not for the person you like...we give him/her respect, and in the same time we're comforting ourself..

Why I'm talking about this is because of a feeling called 'Jealousy'.. jealousy is something that make us to forget the good deeds and what we should appreciate of the person we like or have crush. Why? Well..it will actually make us blind, not sight but our heart..you will always think that you're losing now, which is actually not..but jealousy will gradually make you lose by being jealous. Jealousy leds a person to be moody, unstable, violent and being weird by doing something unexpected that our friends or even the person whom we like. This will make he/she feel illfeel and eventually all our past effort will be wasted just like that..all because of jealosy...
Sometimes jealousy might even led ourself to choose to give up...

Give up? That's so uncool.. There's two common mistake that teenagers usually do.. Firstly, when you give up before you even start on what you gonna do.. I understand,we never ever want to get any pain or disappointment..but if you never fall into the darkness, how can you find the new light? In our life, it is essential to replace our current and old light.. you can only keep a light forever when you really think that it will never led ourself to the deepest darkness.Never ever keep the light that betrayed us. So instead of giving up even before we start, so might as well we try it and whatever that will happen to us, just remember..it is something that we should really appreciate..

" Light led to darkness, darkness led to light"

Secondly, it is when you give up when you're close to win it... Ironically, we will never know that we're close to win it..hilarious.. Even though it's hard to know whether we're winning or losing, it will still be uncool if we give up before we really confirmed that we're goin to lose it. Instead of that, why can't we just think that we're goin to win it? Believe me, just think that you're winning it, and eventually you'll prevent yourself from being moody and do something that might the person whom you like to lose respect to you..so just think that you're winning it, don't let jealousy get over you. Never give up till you saw the stop sign! As what I've said before

" Cry when it really can't be helped, cry when it's helped."

and in addition, this is from Cindy:
" What you think is what you get"

Stop jealousy from conquering our minds..respect and appreciate the person whom we like..especially when we're male.. even though we're being very sensitive in this kind of situation..don't ever lose our respect by forgetting something that we should not forget..

Even though I never had a dream come true, I'll smile and others smile too
Even though I never had a dream come true, I'll laugh and make others laugh too

Even though I never had a dream come true, I'll never forget anything,never..
Cause,that's uncool...
Even though I never had a dream come true...
mada mada dane...

If your life is hard, take it easy..
If your life is too easy, make it hard... - Isnu

2007-05-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

Final exams are coming and I'm loving it..Lol and people who're reading this post or those who've been consoling me through tagboard, yeah thanks and I'm really fine. I've been through from all those obstacles and now I'm living STILL in my waiting life but this time it's different, I will wait but I will always create something new, being innovative, no repetition just to make it interesting and not boring...by making people laugh.

My parents will keep asking me now why nowadays I've been laughing to myself in front of my notebook, lol that's because I've made someone to laugh. Yeah, this will be my style just to conquer the feelings of loneliness,jealousy,worries,etc..

So this is another part of my life that I called falling into darkness in order to find the new light...

But oh well, I'm not that so called moody, thus my blog will not really be that often updated..but for tml..I'll promise to update..haha byeee

2007-05-10T11:00:00.000+08:00

I'll just keep waiting, waiting and wait...

Here's the way I'm overcoming my borelone, through waiting..

Well honestly, how many people down there likes to wait for a very long period? Even creditors think that the earlier their debtors pay the debt, the better it is. But oh well this time is a bit different..

If many do not know why I'm being online for almost of the 24 hours? It's all because of waiting..but firstly I will talk about my waiting life..
Well, firstly will be about the simple waiting, it's common to many though lol. Many should already knew that Wong Isnu Adam is a person who always come way too early and end up waiting many those who are late e.g outtings haha well I'm used to it though, I love to be early, my father always say this to my whole family " It's better to wait rather than making others wait for you". What he's trying to say is, we gain respect from others by being the early-bird, rather than other lose their respect to us for being late..haha well but the saddest thing is some people tend to cancel plan last-minutely and I ended up being disadvantageous..but this mostly came from last minute planning..I'm not angry with them, I always blame myself for being stupid to wait way too early..

Secondly, it's waiting for the time where I can find my permanent happiness. I've been experiencing quite an amount of separations in my life..I'm not sure many people will be able to feel the same as me..although I always tough and treat that separation will just make me stronger..lol I think I need to open my mask in order for your all to see how it feels..back to the permanent happiness..what I'm hoping is something that will really last long..let me tell you a story.. a primary school boy who just separated from his family and due to the characteristic that others might find it uninteresting so he seldom talks to others, but till he reached secondary three level, he finally found his happiness, true friendship..but guess what..just after a year, again I've been separated from that happiness, he moved back to Jakarta, and for your further information, in the same time, he's been separated from his brother too.. this is the first time they separated rooms I think.. Right after that, yet again, he's choosy in friendship, he never really able to hang out with friends who erm well..shan't describe them here..but oh well, guess what..at least he found a new friends but again in Singapore, not so called new though..and he found lotsa things during that holiday but I shall not elaborate here but for sure is,yet again it's another separation, and this makes him to keep waiting,waiting and wait to find his permanent happiness.. constant separation..that's painful..

Lastly, well since I'm being bored and lonely in my room, the thing that I only can do is to wait..wait for my friends to be online..and share their good stories and updates. They went to zoo or cinemas, I'm fine with it though there's tiny jealousy and envied, it's not really a big problem to me. So everyday, I'm waiting,waiting and wait for my friends to be online and make my day happier. But guess what? It's hurtful when your waitings come to nothing..I mean it's like after your all having fun and when you reached home, and you say ''it's fun'' and that's it..oh furthermore, after they all were having fun, sometimes when they reached home, their mood changed, well it's fine if they tell me what changed their mood but the problem is, they are unwilling to tell me..well it's fine and might be a privacy for them..but that makes my brain to guess..and for your further information..i prefer being told rather than guessing.. but oh well sometimes all my waitings come to a naught... disappointing, I was expecting you to share your happiness, not to share your coldness..well sometimes people just love to lie..can people just say " I'm lazy to chat to you" or " I prefer chatting with others",etc..than I will stop bothering these people..I'm fine with it..as long people never tell me beautiful lies..

Oh this is the reason why I'm like onlining 24 hours a day, just to wait to hear good stories from others but end up being the opposite,most of the time..

You see, people won't really care about how I feel here..of course, but imagine if you were me, you will feel something that can make you burst into tears if you're not strong enough..frankly, this is way too much painful..It's not people hurting my feelings, but it's my brain that works as a suicide bomb to myself...tears of loneliness..well heck care people will never care about this..

So again the conclusion is, I will still be waiting, waiting and wait..
Fortunately, I love to wait though it's like sitting on a needle chair..
Even myself still patient enough to wait for an answer..
People said that God loves people who are patient,
but ironically, people won't care about people who are patient enough to wait..
it's pscyhologically true that people will care about themselves, I'm fine with it..
but what happen if you are me? I suggest not but guess what? that's my only supplement of happiness currently..waiting.

I've been waiting, and I've waited and I'll keep waiting, waiting and wait....
but,no one knows...

"A person cares about himself by doing something that people won't care,waiting.."-Isnu

2007-05-09T17:49:00.000+08:00

Erm I'm blogging this during my lecture break and since my notebook is right in front of my eyes..so I've decided to update my blog.

While my friends are enjoying their trips to the zoo currently, I'm just sitting alone in the class envying on how fun going to the zoo is. Oh yes, for your further information, I've not been to the zoo for about 8 years already!! But well envying is not a problem anyway, I'm just worried of small matter that I'm not supposed to expose it here.

Well, just received my accounting test mark and it's disappointing, 89/100 =.=..gosh now I dunno I should be worried for my Accounting final year or not.. its first few chapters are simply an ABC, however, for the last few chapters..it's like calculating 99!(factorial) manually without any calculator..lol.. Oh since I'm talking about accounting marks, so might as well I elaborate more on my studies in this foundation course.. English is fine...my first semester mark got 85/100, Computer studies most unfortunately, the marks are disclosed..for math, it's nightmare.. 60/100..but hey the last few chapters are easy..I love probability and statistics! For accounting, I got 83/100 for semester 1 and lastly management studies I got 94/100 for total average marks of semester one...

Studies is fine, even myself taking it,well..too lightly, but in this past few months before my final exam on the 4-8th June, i can feel the pressure..so that's why I've decided to put aside all my concerns,worries and even feelings.. so my apologies if I've been really irritating especially in Windows Live Messenger..irritating in the way that i'm just replying ''oooh'', ''ic'', etc... but oh well if I'm free, of course I will chat normally...same goes to sms-es..i've been either ignoring or just say I'm busy especially during classes..well people does that to me as well..so it's not really a big problem though...

When I will be reaching home today, I bet there will be no one to chat with..since I predicts that they are still enjoying there...heck care about that..what I'm wondering now is, although my college school is almost over and I will help my dad on his work before I fly to Melbourne.. isn't the same as if I'm going to school every morning and goes home on the evening?, and now it's worse, there will be no classmates. Gosh, this compound of Boredness and Loneliness which I will be calling it as Borelone is still bothering me..and I can't do anything about it but to tell myself to be patient. Can you imagine, I'm like a housewife who is bored and have nothing to at home, so what I do to satisfy myself is goes to mall alone and do some shopping, erm that's spendthriff..but well that's the only way to satisfy myself..even I goes shopping alone..hilarious..
I'd better plan and make sure that IF I happen to go there again, I won't be really that disappointed as what I've always...never mind I'm just always getting irritated when my plans were ruined and that's it..

Back to the after graduated from college part,so..
Anyone please answer me, I will still be alone right?

2007-05-07T10:14:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since I posted an entry bout my daily life..

Lol..well since my life here in Jakarta is kinda empty, bored of course. 85% of my daily activities is spending time in my room, being infront of my Sony Vaio notebook for at least 8 hours a day. Guess what? Now chatting in Windows Live Messenger is my only solution to overcome my stresses and pressure.

Since I went back from Singapore on that day, lots of confusion happened. To my brain, this particular confusion is a disaster. Love is out of the question, I won't mention that here, maybe next time, but oh well I gotta concentrate on my studies anyway. The main problem is unintentional jealousy, well I never like to have this feeling but damn it! it never goes away from me. This feeling usually reacts when I've heard my friends are having some outtings or even the smallest unecessary case to be jealous of, group study. Well, I'm happy that my friends are having fun.Yes they do laugh and smile, most importantly, having fun..but well nothing can be helped to stop this reaction of mine. I always hoped I hear nothing or worry about their fun but well I always updated myself, too fast indeed. Lol, but currently, I've been trying to calm myself down. Looking at the mirror reflecting my current life as a teenage boy whose satisfaction and fun are taken by some kind of unseen barrier. It's neither from parents nor friends, but loneliness. However, I've always think that if I update myslef on what's going on down there, I can feel that I'm there as well. Guess what? That doesn't really works.

I'm fine actually..

I guess I shall end it here, I'm gonna update bout my cold life next time, which I spent most of it staring in the mirror talking to myself, regretting...

You see, life is full of enemies..
Now, I'm facing the greatest of it..
Myself as the nemesis,
Creating my own catastrophe..

'' I should go and seek some friends..
But, they don't really comprehend..''

Take Me To You Heart-Michael Learns To Rock

2007-05-05T12:24:00.000+08:00

OH NO!

I'm tagged dasar Cin n Mir!!

Here's the rule:

Each person who gets tagged needs to write a blog post of their own 6 or more idiosyncracies as well as clearly state this rule. After stating your own six weirdness you need to choose six people to be tagged and list their names at the bottom of the entry.Don't forget to leave a comment on their tagboards to say you're tagged and tell them to read your blog for more information as to what it means.
Idiosyncracies means a characteristic, habit, mannerism, or the like, that is peculiar to the individual.

1) I does imaginary tennis every night, it's my daily activity of swinging bolster instead of tennis racquet.

2) I'm well known in family for singing loudly on the night before sleeping(my voice sucks)

3) I often get leg cramps when in the middle of my sleep

4) My tummy is so thin but when people see me from the side(or I see myself in the mirror), i do look fat.

5) I got the crave for salad, I can eat three bowls of it, as long there's thousand island for it.

6) When I'm bete(bad mood), I will do some extreme exercises.

7) When I feel I'm short, I will drink 8 glasses of HI-CALCIUM LOW FAT milk a day, plus 200 times of skipping. In addition, 20 times touching the ceiling. I feel much better after that.

8) I always wished that my first girlfriend is the one I'll gonna marry. P.S: I hate infatuation.

9) I always planned things too early!

10) I got the craze for smiles, although myself is selfish about giving smiles. LOL

11) I'm a perfectionist! (ringan sich)

12) My childhood dream is having my honeymoon in Eiffel, Paris.

13) I hate violence though I'm quite violent in hitting tennis balls. LOL

14) I prefer alphabet to number.

15) I hate to make girls feel guilty while actually I got alot of things to make them feel guilt.

16) I hate MikroletS while I'm driving, they don't how to PARK and STOP their car properly. (oh I've once shouted ''bullshit'' after they suddenly stopped their car for just freaking waiting for their passengers)

17) I hate BajajS while I'm driving, they are just too siput and they're too selfish to move aside.

18) I love making quotes.

19) I'm afraid to face the ghost of you..

And noww... I'm gonna tag:

1) Eric! yg blognya penuh dgn mashimaro

2) Steffi! juga boleh

3) Wilona!

4) Anthony!

5) Jenny! tulis di real-life diary loe yach! =)

2007-02-20T00:52:00.000+08:00

2007-01-21T01:51:00.000+08:00

Long time i've not been updating my blog..haha well slow internet in Indo is the main reason of all this haha...

Well I'm gonna talk bout influence in this post...

Influence is just like a salesman offering you some of their free products to use..we will never know whether if it's good or bad..well how we know which product(influence) is the better one? Human's thinking is very simple,they will just choose the product that most people choose or satisfied with,similarly to influence.

Trend, fashion, slang language and even attitude is one part of influence, but in this post I will be talking mostly about behaviour and attitude. Who wants to be left out by friends? Of course myself never wished for that..and the only way is to follow their behaviour and way of speaking..taking example of nerds and un-nerds..which majorities is un-nerds and eventually the nerds will be left out...the un-nerds were once before the nerds..but they decided to become un-nerds in order to be one of them. No one never know who started the 'influence', but mostly it came from television or opinion leaders e.g celebrities.

Actually, it's allright to be influenced and try to follow trends...however there's some people who've chosen the wrong product(influence). Taking gangsterism as example,firstly that's so uncool and an indeed stupid influence..why just those people who've been influenced to be gangster thought that the majorities of population is non-gangster, so why become gangster for? Gangsterism is just like creating a religion with improper and illegal ritual, both are in police blacklist..and after you're jailed or whatever things happened..will you be able to be in the community again? You are being shameful now..you dun have the guts to face the public anymore..isn't that an utter mistake of choosing product(influence)? We choose 'influence' that make us to be one of the community or friendship..but now you lost it..think twice.

Being in the 20th century, i've realized that the age barrier of having relationship is getting younger. It's like primary five student already been in a boy and girl relationship. What caused this? Well of course it's the influence..mostly came from drama,comics or teenage novels. I've seen a person is so addicted to love that she MUST have a boyfriend. This is what I call teenage love..which is so often that couple broke up within a short period and eventually they don't care after they broke up coz what they need is just satisfaction of having boy/girlfriend and after they broke up they will find another one again. It's like as if you never love that particular person at all..you want relationship as what adults do..ask urself..is urs is adult or teenage love?
We need to observe patiently with more time to choose love..predict their future and OUR own future if u're married with he/she...this is wat i called adult love.With this set of thinking, eventually you will not break easily and you will appreciate what you really love..since u've already chosen wisely...the problem now is not choosing the wrong product(influence). You have chosen the RIGHT product(influence) but you are unable to use it properly..sad case hurh?just like you bought the best computer but you can't use it..it's just like the case of unable to have adult ways lof love..which caused early breakage and addiction in having relationship.

So, when a salesman comes to ur house and offer you free products, will you be able to CHOOSE and USE wisely? Well I hope so...=.=

2006-12-03T19:24:00.000+08:00

2006-11-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

simple posting as i'm too busy with school stuffs haha

2006-11-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

haha this thought of mine is somthing new yet something stupid haha...

lol imagine we are just a cup of tea and make our frens as either sugar or salt hahaha...

Why the heck i'm typing this stupid stuff but i find this very logical haha...well let me explain

I'm sure some of you while making drinks, sometimes u mistook sugar for salt..haha since both of them look similar...
So,try to relate this to friendship or relationship...that particular is so gentleman,loving and of course to us he is the sugar as he/she is sweet person but are u sure he/she is sugar? hahaha

well he/she might be salt in disguise as salt look similar to sugar, he is sugar to us but eventually he is just the salt...hahaha

well wat i'm trying to say is that careful of people around you..people are very sly..they will become anything just to get ur attention or just to get ur simpathy...and of coz sometimes u will eventually find people who look like the salt but eventually that particular person is the sugar..and eventually u will noe whether that person is good(sugar) or bad(salt) after u eventually became very close to that person..just like the real thing...we will know whether it's sugar or salt by tasting it...so lets be careful to avoid any regrets in future...never fall to people's words as in this current world which is full of lies...everything must have proof. Words don't count,they must really prove it to us. Just like love, never fall to the 'i really love you' words,what they need is to prove that they really love us...

haha lame stuff and i'm doubt some of ur all dun understand haha..but oh well i must say this thing is true...

p.s: It's okay to mistook salt for sugar...but you will be indeed stupid if you take pepper..lol

2006-11-05T08:29:00.000+08:00

Human is a fragile living thing. Unlike animals which only care about their children or own survival, human has feelings. Having feelings, it's a gift for us but nowadays we human unable to take advantage of it and instead feelings led to their own downfall. Actually, there's nothing wrong having sad or dull feelings. However, humans are just helpless when it comes to this kind of situation. Well maybe not everyone is like this, but I believe they did have encountered all of this. I did have it too.

How careless a human can be when they've fallen deep into their feelings. When they're too agonized by their sad feelings, most of us will eventually forget that we're not done yet. There's a saying that "Always prepare a spare keys for your room."Likewise we humans, when we lost something, there's always the other one. Similarly to talent, we call this lad Royce, he's so illiterate that he failed most of his subjects. However, he has a talent of playing acoustic music. Setting aside his studies, he concentrates on his acoustic studies and eventually he became a well-known musician. Every human isn't born stupid, they might be stupid at something but they msun't forget that they have hidden talent. It's just a matter of time to find that. What I'm trying to say is that when we lost something, there's always another one waiting for us.

"She's my only one, I can only love her."

Amusingly, it's common to us. Haha, romantic it is but somehow it's quite stupid. When that person is someone we can't have, then let it be (oh how I miss the Beatles' song..Haha lame). Maybe some people are dramatic and think that they can't forget that particular person. There's a saying "If you want to forget someone, then replace it." It's agreeable but of course we can't utterly disregard the past. Similarly to wrong-deeds, when we did something terrible, our wrongdoing can't be erased from the blacklist. There's a saying "When we hammer some nails to the door, when we take out the nails, the holes will remain." It's trying to say that we can't forget completely the excruciating pasts. Instead, we take advantage of it and will not replicate them again. We live for contentment or I should say happiness, of course everyone wants to be happy constantly. Rather than being depressed all the time, let's find a new happiness. Mean as it seems as we are trying to forget or give up that particular person whom we adore previously. But what we've given up is sorrow and misery, we never give up our hope.

So is 'forever' love is your real happiness? Haha, we'll never know..

"Wouldn't risk my love,even though it's just one night"

2006-11-03T19:36:00.000+08:00

AT LAST!! My assignment finally finished and now i'm able to update the blog and i'm free from that Miranda's nagging of ''UPDATE PLEAASE'' and she even kowtowed for it.nishisi it's just a joke..

It's been one week since i came back from Singapore for holidays...all the painful thoughts are all became past and now i'm 'empty' nothin to worry about and nothin to be happy about..but somehow deep in my heart i need more happiness haha yeah i admit i'm kinda bored here..unlike singapore,here i seldom hang out wit frens or whatsoever.But naaah just think of the positive side,being here i've got almost everything i want for being comfortable..=.=

School alr started and it's getting kinda exciting haha and i getting used to speak slank english in front of the lectures since most of them are native speakers(bule) haha..and oh yeah i'm getting really excited now..tml i will start my tennis training again haha...it's been a while since i touched that racquets of mine haha...this time i will beat that ballboy! haha dun judge him just by his job..his skill is hella better than me last time haha..haha okies boring stuffs...i gotta end now..byes!

2006-10-21T09:55:00.000+08:00

Boat Quay-ing with the Indos haha one missing though....

Regrets hurh...

Sometimes,it's rather to be into the future rather than being back to the past...
(It's better to prevent regrets rather than regretting)

2006-10-08T08:50:00.000+08:00

Great memories with my brother hurh....

2006-10-07T14:35:00.000+08:00

It's narcist season and it happened when I'm studying lol...that's wat happen if i nv do my hair haha....will be back soon to sgpore for holidays =)

If only you're here, I will always protect and love you...
If only you're made for me, I will create the sweetest memories for you...

2006-10-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

Every day that I'm here with you..
I know that it feels right,
and I've just got to be near you every day and every night,
and you know that we belong together..
It just had to be you and me..

From the moment I met you I just knew you'b be mine.
You touched my hand,
and I knew that this was gonna be our time.
I don't ever wanna lose this feeling..
I don't wanna spend a moment apart..

Cause you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you....

2006-09-20T20:09:00.000+08:00

Today's at least was quite a meaningful day..

Went to school with uniform and blonde hair just to have lunch in the school canteen haha..how long has it been since I've eaten there..Met with my friends there and we chit-chatting till evening....

As expected,everyone find it very weird, hahaha i shouldn't mix blonde hair with school uniform..

Decided to go Tiong Bahru Plaza with my classmates and we went KFC,I ate the chicken salad and surprisingly saw Lim Szu Hui with her schoolmates...Haha I almost can't recognise her from far away since she is having long hair now...hahaha

Decided to call it a day,so I separated from my friends and wait for the bus to come..Met Prang at the bus stop then followed by Anita -__-''..Today really met many people...

Okay boring post hahaha all blame to Miranda for her impatient blog update request hahaha...gonna end it here..

2006-09-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

Feel so bored at home. Aimlessly looking for activity to do yet can't find any..
Tennis? Naah the weather is so unpromising..whereas when the sky is clear,my usual tennis partners is unavailable...><

Filled with jealousy by just thinking how my friend is enjoying their school days now,whereas filled with nervousness on how I will be coping with my foundation studies...

My friends supposedly having lessons with a group of friends,while mine is just the opposite..
Having a 1-on-1 interaction with my laptop and just accompanied by the breeze sound..

My friends are having their meals at canteen together with their friends,whereas,I'm having my meal at home at the dinner table alone...

I feel that my days are just wasted with nothingness..

Now I'm wondering why some people dislike school,I can't imagine how they will spend their daily life wasted just like that...

Now is boredness next here comes the separation...

What are you really thinking of?
I can't get over your best smile....

So beautiful, queer tenderly, the engraved wound.....

2006-09-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

Friday-8th September 06

Went out with the Kimchis to watch The Devils Wears Prada at Cathay Cineplex Orchard...
wew the movie was nice and the movie is trying to tell us that in order to be sucessful,we need to ignore friendship...but it seems that the main character in the show decided to choose relationship over work.Anyway we walked for 99999999 km haha just to find the Kimchis' bustop.

Saturday-9th September 06

Went out to have dinner with Selvie and Jillian at Billy Bombers at Heeren there, the food there is delicious! But it was in a large serving..OMG my stomach is exploding hahaha...oh yeah i love the milkshake there..
Unexpected,met Daniel there and i think his friend's leg was badly injured till the ambulance came to pick her up.
Selvie and Jillian bought me a cake! -__-''though a day earlier, i really appreciated it alot haha...
if I'm not wrong it's Blueberry cheesecake haha..thanks to you both...

.....................................Big thanks to Selvie Go and Jill

................................... @ Billy Bombers Heeren 9/9/06

After our dinner,we went to the Borders at Wheelock Place and we have quite having a 'fun' there hahaha..Neways it's already 10th September and it's my 17th...happy birthday myself...
Gonna end here...doing some task for Selvie haha..bye =)

2006-09-07T10:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a boom, It's been a long time since I went out with a large number of group..this time we gather for Selvie's birthday..Happy Birthday Selvie and Justin too..

Selvie chosen The Village at Heeren there as her 'birthday' dinner haha...Supposedly we had trouble choosing which food to buy there haha...but overall we enjoyed the dinner alot..I've met new friends and there's lotsa fun there..screams and laughter are something we can't miss during that time haha...Anyways on that day, I ate salad twice..haha one is during Selvie,Jillian and me ate at Swenssen for lunch...twice is at The Village for dinner LOL..

The B'day girl,Selvie Go

.................................................Selvie and Me

It's 10.30 pm and we finished our dinner...some groups decided to take a leave since it's already quite late...but since some of us still want to have some fun so we went to catch a movie...it's the LittleMan..allright that was a full-of-laughter movie..and as usual sitting beside Selvie was quite an ear-filling hahaha this time is her laugh which was like a drum to me haha..neways is usual of her...

So the show is finally over and we decided to call it a day...most probably I will not be seeing some of the new friends again since I will be leaving here..and mostly they are not from Jakarta..haha naah it's ok there's still MSN to keep in touch...haha

Kays gotta end here..oh yah I just wrote the most horrible testimonial to Lim Yan Lin a.k.a the elephant hahaha not sure whether she will accept it or not..oh yah tomorrow there will be another outting with the Kimchis...faster online and we plan! haha byez

2006-09-05T13:36:00.000+08:00

Not planning to post for today though but since it's by people's demand haha..here it is...
Gonna be short!

Yesterday just played tennis yet again with Anita..haha she improved on her forehand alot..lotsa power too..anyways i've learnt some skills too...
1.Curve serve
2.Powerful forehand (jump and hit)
3.Kick serve
4.Jacknife double backhand
Haha I guess many will not know all the skill names above but it does really took alot of time to understand since I just learnt it from a website and my one-armed backhand is improving =)..quite useful though haha..I need coach!

Ok ok sorry for talking about tennis haha..neways today is Stanley's bday..Happy Bday =) pity he can't celebrate it since there's Social Studies paper...Tml is Selvie's bday and she insisting on treating lots of us at the Village at Heeren there..geez that's expensive and i feel bad on spending her money...

So what I did these past few hours? It's the online dance game called Audition..quite fun and I just installed it yesterday just to replace my boredness..
Oh yah I just noticed that this past few days people have problems about their love life..to what I observed it seems that the problem is whether you as a person really like that person or not...well maybe if I've got some time..I will post about love haha so be patient enough Kimchis!

Geez,anyway I love my blog music..another Soukyuu no Fafner's masterpiece...it's called 'Yumi no Kimochi' ...enjoy =)

2006-08-31T22:16:00.000+08:00

LOL sorry Krisbel since I need to post my daily life too..I postpone the logical post like the last two haha..Anyway Kimberly also want to become my blog fan too =) so does Tessa too? LOL

Anyway..Today was my last day at New Town Secondary School...sad..indeed very sad.I can't think of anything else but ''This is a goodbye'' well but it's not my final goodbye..I will still be visiting the school for food =) whenever I'm bored with home foods...My final goodbye suppose to be around the end of September...I will write the goodbye post when that day is coming near haha...School's today was unusually shivering..there's workout in the morning but I skipped it since I got to handle things at the General Office..but I joined my class back to watch the talentime..

It's 10.30 am and the school were dismissed early..so I've decided to visit back my primary school...it's quite disappointing that not many were coming back to New Town Primary...haha it seems they will find it boring to go there...well I wen to visit my ex-teachers nad as expected they commented on my hair haha...Around 2 pm...that's my final farewell to New Town Primary..

Lotsa of farewell today..but i should stay tough..my father said this to me before '' To achieve own success..you must ignore friendship'' Yeah especially when separation is a must...sometimes I might understand what Ikka felt during her farewell too...well Mada mada dane..I still have one more month to go and Selvie's,Anth's and my birthday are coming too...haha anyway must remember myself that this Sunday I booked myself with ShiKun and Jason LOL...

Mada Mada Dane...not over yet..

2006-08-30T21:43:00.000+08:00

Kristabel like my last post about friendship yay! =) haha now she requested me to post about life..haha i got a blog fan now..haha anyway i also wished to post this too...this time is about a word ''mature''....

Many will be asking their friends ''Am I acting maturely?'' or ''How to be mature?'' Haha..this is very common to teenagers in their education life...Let's divide this into two parts...''immature'' and ''mature''...

''Mature" is sometimes mistaken as ''immature'' and yeah i really agree with this..we as teenagers does childish thing or play childishly erm let's give one example such as playing the trading cards game which is the hobby-of-the-month of my class....I already can hear some of my friends mumbled ''so immature..sec 4 still play that game'' haha it's a childish game but it's ''mature''..Why? Have your all ever heard of the phrase ''Love youself first before you love others''? well I'm sure some of you did...this goes to this situation now...What's the reason my friends are playing trading cards?..Even though i did not ask them..i can guess the answer straight away..it's fun! and they are enjoying playing it..The real reason of they're being ''mature'' is they are making themselves happy! making onself happy is a ''mature'' way of living...

Not to forget one other thing that is very common to teenagers...It's they keep asking themselves or their friends ''Am I mature/immature?'' haha even we as being one of his/her friends are unable to answer it and we eventually will answer that they are mature just not to hurt their feelings...so sometimes asking others is not really that accurate...instead of asking,how about making it...regardless of you are already matured or not. How? haha I'm lazy to write again..as the answer can be found on my last post which is about being able to say ''thank-you'' and ''sorry'' more often which means being a cool-headed...LOL

Now it's about "Immature" This time is the opposite...people mistaken ''Immature'' as ''Mature''...Why? Well..I call this being too mature in early stages...Similar to what I said above..we teenagers are ought to do something more ''childish'' or ''teenage-ish''..this is the best way to prevent from being good to bad and goes on to worst...e.g alcoholism underagely,underage clubbing,illegally underage smoking cigars and lastly the naively gangsterism...These things are way too far from us...you want to be looked like adult? that's not the right way...you making yourself become ''immature'' instead of ''mature''...escape yourself from these things and take the right path...my father said to me this before '' Shortcut can be a pitless hole to you'' Well I agree...sometimes faster way can be a setback to us..

Now, can you answer yourself...are you mature?

Everything in our life is all about ''proving''

2006-08-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

This time my post will be quite different..haha since I'm bored,i will just let out some of my thoughts about our usual life....this time is about friendship.

As you can see..in friendster,blogs,etc that people put backstabber as their hates list..Talking about backstabber...they actually aren't that bad afterall...I know they are in wrong to betray our trust..but they did benefit us too...They helped us to identify our own bad points which we eventually will not know if they never backstab about that to others...there's some logic that good friends do tell your bad points right? Well this goes the same to backstabbers...but indirectly they tell bad points about us...to me I will be very glad and thankful that actually helped us to identify it..Backstabbers can be our enemies yet rivals..and backstab in different way...what they told to others might be different from what we actually is...but honestly this is our golden chance to prove others that we are not that kind of person and help our friends around us to know what kind of person we are...

There's many way to tackle this problem and use this problem to be advantageous to us...but I think there's one simple way to handle this....it's just too simple that we just need to learn how to say ''thank you'' and ''sorry more often...Why? Well 'thank you' is used to thank the person who already backstabbed us for telling our bad points and we can improve ourselves more...and the word 'sorry' is just used to learn how to accept or bear with bad remarks on us...never get mad when people bad remark on you..this will just like a fish caught in a bait...instead..just accept it and say sorry..eventually we will gain support from others and we will be known as a cool headed person...isn't this as simple as ABC or counting 1 2 3? oh well...it is.

We felt betrayed,anguished,disgusted and anger conquering our thoughts...well it's common and obvious after you just heard that a good or close friend of yours had just backstabbed you...After all they are humans too...there should be something that made them did this...and it's us! I don't know whether you like it or not but...we live in a complicated life where not everyone can be trusted...well i should say everyone can't be trusted...Life is make such that we need to make everything in our life to be beneficial to ourself..This aren't selfish,instead we call this the art of survival...

Afterall,we are only humans...neither more nor less..

The word 'friend' is a dangerous word..

2006-08-27T15:14:00.000+08:00

I apologize for taking such a long time to update again..haha but this time it's caused by the faulty ex-laptop of mine..haha

(Saturday-26 August '06)
By looking at the word 'ex' I am sure some of you already informed that I already bought a brand new notebook(laptop)..yah I've been waiting for this moment yet I need the important datas in my old laptop...i think before repairing it,i need to take the hard drive and back up the files first...before it's all gone forever lol..Anyways..it's a Sony VAIO with a 1.4 megapixels camera and a large and beautiful lcd screen...haha I purposely choose the bigger screen as I don't want to spoil my eyes and of course bigger laptop..the faster it's processor it is haha...gosh I was wondering how much I really spent this year...anyway there's no turning back since it's BOUGHT...lol

While waiting to charge the notebook's battery for 8 hours(that's painfully long) so I decided to join Selvie and Jillian to catch a movie...and it's Snake On a Plane...Selvie called me to ensure whether this movie is a horror one..well i told her that it's a thriller..haha but it turns out to be a horror to her..haha..erm how i suppose to describe...it's like during the show..she will mostly spent her time closing her ears and close her eyes..not wanting to see the horrific scenes..well to me it's not horrific but disgusting though...and gosh she screamed at her top voice..believe me or not..i am horrified by her scream not by the show haha..but it's fun though..the movie was quite a satisfying....

After the movie...we decided to have our dinner...firstly we went to The Village at Heeren..it's a long queue..then we went up and went for Sakae Sushi and it's a long queue too..so it's a merry-go-round walk till we went to Suki Sushi at Cineleisure..haha though we need to wait for seats too,but it's not really a long queue..so we decided to wait with patience haha....Anyway..eaten alot and spent alot of money too haha...fortunately i've already burnt down some fats through 1-on-1 tennis with Anita at the previous day(Friday)....but i don't really think so as after that tennis game...we called 6777 3777 and guess what..it's McDonald's delivery hotline lol...haha and it's a late supper for us haha...anyway it's satisfying..lol

Oh yah..not to forget to mention Cheryl...she already left to USA and i felt terribly sorry for being unable to send her to airport as i went to Funan to buy my new laptop...anyways gonna miss her and i will be looking forward to see her again in Jakarta...we gonna go out together with Ikka and others who will be in Jakarta too haha...anyways keep in touch =)...

(Sunday-27 August '06)

Did nothing else other than Windows Updating and installing important softwares to my new notebook...and later will be going to Great World City to buy optical mouse and etc...money will be spent again TT...okay gotta stop here...bye

2006-08-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

School was allright..our PE is wasted on the Singapore workout dance WTH...and we only had 10 minutes of basketball..aww nevermind bout that..Anyway today's was fun..everything seems to be so realxed...and i even left school early right after recess as i need to fetch Cheryl from airport haha..Lucky Ikka told sms me earlier...she sms-ed me until her handphone's top-up value finished haha..since it's urgent so she decided to ask Cheryl to be the one sms-ing me instead...anyway Cheryl arrivec at Singapore,finally! and i am able to meet her for the first time...

Fetched her at the airport and straight away take a cab to the house she will be staying for two days which is at Ardisa's homestay...It's amusing,though it's the first time we met..we actually able to speack normally like as if we are long-close friend..anyway she will be staying in Singapore till Saturday evening...after that she will straight go to USA again as her school term is starting again..

So right after putting her luggage at her temporary home..we went straight to Leonies...unfortunately many haven't went home and there's only Stella in...so we decided to go Orchard and do some window shopping...gosh i actualy almost bought a nice reebok running shoe but there's no more size for me..so didn't buy it TT sad2...i think there's should be stock at Great World City...as it's similar to Taka's The Stadium...Maureen finally came to meet us haha but she went back again to change her clothes and she met us again at Cathay Cineleisure....we decided to go eat at Spize and after that we went Kim Seng Plaza to play pool for one hour...lol i lost my touch! haha anyways...after that we went home as there's still school tomorrow...and maureen seems to be tired but she must be happy that she finally able to play pool...haha emo pooler haha jokin!

Tomorrow shall be a fun day to me again..kay bye2

2006-08-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hiya today i gonna do a short post...since nothing much happened today...

It's family reunion!! Haha we went out for lunch with our father at a famous Herbal Turtle Soup restaurant at Geylang road...though the place it's so freaking warm..but the food was a delight haha..the restaurant was like so packed with eating customers and even the waiting customers haha...anyway it's famous rite? haha...i feel healthier by drinking those herbal soups hahaha lame...

After taken our lunch...my bro and I followed our dad back to his hotel...lol we spent two hours of talking bout our future,education,friends and many more hahaha it's been so long since we were having family discussion like this...i feel so relieved and overjoyed for that two hours haha...Lol and a correction..my dad will be leaving Singapore to Malaysia tomorrow instead of Tuesday..my apologies on the wrong information on the last post haha...After my bro and I took a leave....my father gave us huge allowance =) hiya what a weekend i had haha...

Okay gotta end here haha..bye

We only notice what's important to us when we lose it. We who are still young are always missing the target..

2006-08-20T01:08:00.000+08:00

Okay time to update hahaha....soon my one week holiday will be over and i will be overjoyed that i am able to attend school as usual again..but sadly my days at NTSS will be over...In about two weeks more..and the September holiday starts..that's when I left NTSS...hahaha i will miss this school for sure...but fortunately i can still spend one more month at Singapore before i leave this precious lil island of mine hahaha..i think it should be around 20+ September....Aww anyway i just make every minute of my remaining days at NTSS and Singapore a special one...

It's Saturday and outting with Selvie again..Now there is Jillian and Karina and Viar joining us too..and it tripled the fun hahaha...we spent more than 6 hours walking here and there haha...Firstly we went to accompany Selvie to an interview for her Trinity College planning or whatsoever...eventually Karina and Jillian started to ask questions too haha...LOL what a school Selvie planning to go....Must at least four B4s for the prelim haha..it's like omg to me...but hopes that she will be able to enter Trinity and able to join her relatives at Melbourne there...

Okay we were starved...so we decided to go Takashimaya and eat Ajisen Ramen...It's like so damn tummy-satisfying lol but my stomach can't take it anymore...hahaha we were walking with heavy tummy hahaha..So after that lunch we walked around Takashimaya...lol eventually i bought a nice red tennis shirt..it's worth the price lol...and gosh it's already 7.30 pm haha and i just can't believe we were actually went to a restaurant again! hahaha my stomach can't take it haha..and the food at NYDC was of coz very 'cheap' haha $4 for a diet coke hurh haha..Jill and Selvie went to meet Jill's relatives and i think Selvie will be back joining Viar and Karina to catch some movie...So we separated after that since i need to hurrily go back home and get changed for a tennis game at Leonies...

Lol not many were playing but this should be quite an exercise to me...ooh how glad that those foods i've taken finally burned down hahaha...After the tennis Anita,Ms Yvonne and me went to 7 Eleven to buy some beverages....lol after around 45 minutes of slacking we decided to go home...ms yvonne took a cab,while Anita and me walked home...and OMG i was really overjoyed that i finally met my ex-best friend Krisna Andy hahaha...i am really damn happy! =) he is with his GF i think.. ..but his appearance doesn't change at all..still the same old Krisna i know during the old primary school days hahaha...supposedly he should be the one surprised by my changes of appearance from those primary school days haha...NVM i was really overjoyed! =)

While walking...Anita was giving me ideas on how i should celebrate for my Birthday which is at 10 September =) as well as my farewell party TT....She insist that i should throw out a formal party...lol i like her idea but unfortunately my sweet seventeen will not be that sweet haha..as if my parents will really give money to me to book a hotel's ballroom and held a formal party hahaha.....Well but really i like her idea...and it's been many years that i did not celebrate my birthday....But somehow..my way of thinking said that by helding a party...will sometimes trouble others..they need to buy presents or whatsoever..so that they will not come empty-handed to that birthday party...bla bla bla some strange thinking of mine...but really it works...haha it's been many years too i haven't receive b'day gifts...but i already able to enjoy my b'day by having a simple dinner with my family =).....kay Anita help me think of good ideas hahaha....i am clueless and idea-less....aww maybe my bday and farewell should just be a simple one..nahh...mada mada dane..

Accompanied and sent her home all the way to Leonies...-__-'' she forced me too as she admit that she has a fear of ghost -__-'' i think even ghost will scared of her hahaha...argh anyway after sent her home...so i sent myself home too =) ok lame haha...argh the Arsenal's EPL result made me down hahaha anyway it's just a game so heck care =)....take a bath...then start to blog =) and so on.....hahaha anyway today's a fun day and a spendthriff day too...Xp
Oh yah my dad is now at Singapore...he got to sing with his choir mates at somewhere at Singapore hahaha....he got strong voice if many of still dunno and his voice is brilliant...but the talent just doesn't pass to his son TT haha...anyway good luck dad with your choir perfomance and if got some time...let's go out at Singapore....he got to leave S'pore at Tuesday to Malaysia for another choir perfomance then at the 28th he will go to GuangZhou...lol what an overseas trips haha....

Allrite time to end it here...it's late and i need a rest....okie bye!

Been lonely since that day...the day you went away...

2006-08-12T21:01:00.000+08:00

Hiya..today supposed to be a short post again since nth much for today
Anyway happy birthday to Selvi and Choon Siong haha sorry Selvi if i was unable to attend ur b'day party since i just knew there's this party in the last minute..

Anyway played o2 Jam in the morning till when i saw Selvie Go online and since we two were like nth to do so we decided to catch a movie..my super-ex girlfriend starring uma thurman and so on haha...we decided to catch the 3.15 show...and when she hasn't arrived yet...i met choon siong,shi kun,webster,junkai and so on at the ticket booth...they were watching Dragon tiger gate...pheew fortunately Selvie hasn't arrive..if not i will be doomed when i come back to school hahaha...of coz it will be a misunderstanding for sure if they saw us both...All rite Selvie came and before we entered the cinema...i asked Selvie wat course she will be taking when she will be studying at melbourne and she is clueless hahaha...after 15 minutes we entered and sit down to enjoy the movie...lol Selvie doesn't like popcorn hahaha..erm not really that she dun like it but she just dun wan popcorn hahaha...Selvie laughed alot during the show hahaha indeed alot and there's one time when she was the only one laughing during one of the event in the show and it was very loud laugh hahaha...quite embarassing to her i think but it's ok laughter is medicine haha...

After the movie,we decided to eat sushi hahaha we were like talking about the past when we were fat and chubby hahaha...both of us talked alot and so on but i lazy to type everything that we said during the dinner..haha then after the dinner i accompanied her to Popular bookshop as she wanted to buy a calculator for her fren..haha after that both of us went home...haha it's fun to go out wit her..ermm next time must ask her out again when i am bored...

Okay i will be going for bowling game soon with the leonies..bye2

2006-08-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

Tml will be a no-school for me..and this will goes on till next week's friday since i will not be taking the prelim exams haha..so i've got time to update my blog now..anyway it's been long since i update this blog as i'm just back home from the chalet...

Anyway,i will be describing how's the chalet was.Though the chalet was not really that organized but i believe i learnt alot from this outting and i met lotsa of new friends.Ok i will say it out one by one how's the three days two night chalet was..One thing for sure is that going to Pasir Ris was such a costly especially when we were taking the cab..ong that's 16 dollar a trip...oh yah since we are not going to bbq everytime..we will be going to either fast food restaurants or food court..again money were spent..aww i spent alot in this chalet hahaha but at least that was tummy-filling and satisfying.

In this chalet...i slept for a short time only..since chalet are meant to be fun and we are not going to waste time sleeping durin the chalet rite? so we mostly spent our time awake hahaha..Oh yah i dunno whether people will find it strange or whatsoever..but i finally able to ride a bicycle in just 15 minutes when it is my first time actually riding on a bicycle hahaha...yah since small till 8th August 06 i was unable to ride a bicycle since my father never bought it for me and my brother TT hahaha but who really cares about the past...as long i am able to ride a bicycle now hahaha..nothing to be ashamed of..haha

I've made many friends from different countries in this chalet..and some of them are now at New Town Primary too(my former pri school) haha and some of them are in the same class as mine when i am primary 6 and the form teacher is similar too..and she is ms Radziah..haha to me..she is one of the best teacher..her strictness is what made the my primary 6 class became bonded and it's one of my best school moments haha...can't wait for the teacher's day to arrive..i gonna see her for the last time before i left Singapore..

As expected..during the chalet we were playing truth or dare to conquer our boredness haha..and we were doing this at morning...erm real morning (1 am to 4 am) haha...there's many shocks and laughter haha but it's just a game and we can't really expect everything to be always the same as what they said..there are always changes in every seconds...well they didn't managed to get to know many informations from me hahaha lucky me but someone stolen my first kiss...-__-'' but to cheek okay..and it's not me who kissed, i am the one who is kissed... omg!why does she need to choose dare instead of truth...haha but it's just a game..just a game..the next day it's all forgotten haha...

At the last day..nothing much happened as we were busy packing things and get ready to go home haha..but this time we were taking the MRT just to save money hahaha anyway it's way more fun than taking taxis home...just bear with the heavy load i am carrying haha...anyway on the way home...my sandal finally spoiled! and your all should know what is this sign means....its a new pair of sandal time!! i gonna go to Great World tomorrow and find a good pair of sandal hahaha but still not sure what kind of sandal i will be buying..whether it's casual type or the leather type hahaha..we'll see tomorrow..anyway Rachakan planned a bowling game tomorrow..erm still not sure whether those Leonies really going and interested as what they said to bowl...well again we'll see this tomorrow...

So after i reached back home..i cleaned up my luggage and take a bath..then finally i'm able to enjoy sleeping in the real comfy bed hahaha..i slept for 4 hours anyway hahaha then after i took my dinner..i just spent my time watching Prince of Tennis again hahaha..it's been 4 days since i am playing tennis...can't wait for the next game hahaha...okay anyway i think i gonna stop here haha bye everyone... oh yah i am now in the crave for sushi..haha

''There is no such thing as bad memories..memories are either happy or educational''
Educational in means that we learnt from mistakes..especially past mistakes..

2006-08-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

allright miranda..now i got some free time to update my blog..sorry if it's short

Erm today is Saturday..at noon i watched Click with Selvie Go and others.The story is interesting and i like the moral value the show trying to tell us.and that is to love parents and family more than works..Well i still can't believe some naive ppl thinks that parents should give everything the best to their children and spend everything for their children..nonsensical to me i think..if they really treated that child like that..will that child will ever return back everything their parents gave.Well anyway back to today's topic,oh yah not forgetting to mention that Selvie is actually crying during the sad moments of the show hahaha it turn out to be a humourous moment to me lol.

With 'some' of the Leonies..I followed them to buy food stuffs for the bbq at the chalet this Tuesday...bought many foods and without noticing the time its already 8+ and i need to return home quickly to home to get ready for the tennis at Leonies...Well this time i got no comment but it just that again i faced another last minute planning...oh yah those who haven't noe..i'm really sick of last minute planning...but well i can't be furious and i wasn't furious...well i do have another five minutes cooling down again by running home with a heavy bag with me..well that's was a 'wow' to me...it really helps...anyway i just put it as no comment..but....

I learnt something today..neither bad intention nor purposely..there are somethin common that people always does..and i came up with a new phrase..'' When promise is just a word..when time is to be ignored'' Well let me explain..people do promise..but it just an another words coming out from our mouth..we can't really say that the 'promise' is a promise..but fortunately people only will do this to light promises so it doesn't really create anger..but if it happened too much and it accumulates..it will turn out to be a disappointment.Now people really like to ignore time...''I will come 30 minutes later'' when actually he/she needs another 2 hours to reach but just to calm down and assure to people who are waiting that he/she will come SOON...but it just another fake hope..well can't peple just say the truth about time and never think that time is just a 'time'...its not to be ignored.Well i'm glad i learnt something new...and i'm so glad that there is blog for me to write this..haha cut it out...

Anyway my apologies if i'm too cold,that's my way of saying sorry and my only way to control my emotion..erm..we call this Make it cold to chill down hahaha...ok2 i gonna end it here...bye

Man must keep his promise..well i'm not sure about woman

2006-07-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

Lol today was a short day i think..so supposedly today's post should be quite short too haha..

Having PE int the first period and we were having volleyball..yawn..haha but the PE teacher will considerate soccer for next week's PE haha...It was one period POA lesson and we were getting ready for the geography test hahaha nervous but confident haha..today ms ray was in good mood that she gave only 15 minutest to finish 4 essay questions lol WTH...we were forced to rush through the paper...I managed to finish whole questions but it seems due to the rush..i think i did some careless mistakes...well just hope it's a pass anyway....Today's CME was strange or I should say lame..the whole class were singing...badly of course haha..the glass going to break soon lol...

It was the first time Mrs Chuang my chinese teacher called me.. -__-'' called me thrice somemore....and i was taking a good afternoon nap that time lol...its a rare ocassion that i spoke chinese on phone conversation haha....

Oh yah...my windows movie maker got error again...OMG i think the new vid going to be halted AGAIN...damn laptop of mine..soon Acer Ferrari(IF) will be mine muahaha..pheew now I'm bored..o2 Jam still under maintenance...haha anyway ciaoo

2006-07-26T20:35:00.000+08:00

Eric and Marco have already created their own blog and they've been updating regularly..shame on me if i never update for so long haha...anyway i am updating now by many requests hahaha..

As usual i took the bus to school but today bus-trip is awkward or i should say feel peculiar..as the seats were all taken..April had no choice but to sit beside me..its like we actualli chatting at MSN but we doesnt talk at real-life haha..the atmosphere that time are very strange indeed..but not realli a big matter to me..i jus keep listening to musics..haha next time must try to talk with her at real life..lol and that reminds me that though both shufei and april are walking together i always greet shufei onli hahaha....rude of me indeed

Today was supposedly a fine day for me,as usual its a merry-go-round class haha...playing water once again became the hobby-of-the-day lol...splash here splash there and many became the victim of flood in the pants haha.As today is wednesday,school was released earlier and i went home straight after that...eits but i decided to eat lunch again at tiong bahru..hahaha..

After I went home...i spent some time on the halfway-done video and i decided to take a nap till the tennis game at 6 pm....and i managed to use the jacknife backhand drive thrice hahaha..
Well...after that i touch the laptop again...and updating the blog...anyway tomorrow i've got a geography test..gonna score well for my humanities pride muahhahaha....ciaoo

Oh yah lastly..good luck for Weiting for her grade 8 piano exam tomorrow hahaha...

2006-07-19T01:02:00.000+08:00

Oh..i think it's time to update my blog haha sorry for not regularly updating..

yay i actuali bought ipod nano 2GB black..coz if i bought i pod vid i can't imagine how heavy my pocket will be and my pants will be dropping like as if i slimmed down 30 kg haha....light and as long it can hear music that will be enough to satisfy me haha..actualli i prefer white but Anita insist that i should buy the black one instead just because her's is white -__-''haha anyway black is cool too haha...ARRGH can't imagine how much i've spent within this months..i need to save money and maybe i can take Anita's idea of bringing just coins to school in order not to spend money blindly lol...haha ur idea not bad haha..

My day is always blur as usual...but i think today was a fun day.At school,i feel drowsy most of the time thanks to the medicine that i need to take...though the doctor already said that it cause drowsyness but i need to take it in order to get rid of this irritating flan from my throat haha.Mdm Nisah is absent and we had free three periods..some are digimon-ing and some are arm-wrestling haha it such a pleasure to see their smiles and i wish i could see this longer..haha..we were dismissed early and then i decided to go home straight since nth to do at skul...

Before I went home..i decided to take my lucnh at tiong foodcourt and to eat my fave japanese food haha after i bought the food i remembered that i need to remind Anita to book the tennis court for this saturday...i sms-ed her and just my luck erm or not luck she is at tiong bus stop...and then she decided to go up and accompany me...so kind of her...urrgh i gonna vomit now..i take back those words...pheew so much better now LOL..BUT when i was going to reply her sms...she was already behind me and she hit me with her fat a-math book...gaarg gonna have revenge for this...while i was eating in the same time we were chit-chatting..and out of sudden she suddenly asked me on how i think bout myself..erm i dun really have the exact answer so i just told her that i am an egoistic person and always wan to have fun haha...but when i think deeply...i am just soft person though outside look like as if going to murder lol..if able..i wish i can change something with my both hands..and of coz to try to make others smile...i love smiles..yah really addicted to smiles haha..oh yah i am also an imaginative person who thinks future more rather than past haha....anyway my way of thinking is strange/peculiar to many so bear wit it haha...i wan to be the one and only Isnu haha...btw -__-''Anita u hvn asnwer too!!

After i finished eating..we decided to go home and wat a disastrous that her friend actualli misunderstood when her frens saw both of us walking...durh is walk as fren!! -__-''just a good luck to anita at her skul tml...make sure this will not become a sotong gossip haha..When we reached the bus stop..we met Anita's homestay thai fren er..i dunno how to spell his name...haha we waited for the bus 195 and at last it arrived but suddenly shirley popped out and forced us to accompany her to go NTUC fairprice and buy topup card too
-__-''..lol i ended up buying milk and cornflakes haha...and then we waited for 195 and went home haha and what a surprise my bro is inside the bus haha....

Errm Ikka already start schooling at her new skul at Jakarta already,wondering if she is coping up now haha...anyway it all depends on her to cope with the new environment...haha next will be my turn at October..gaah!!anyway i gotta end here...5 more mins to tennis downstairs haha...

Mada Mada Dane....

Noblesse Oblige...LOL

2006-07-11T20:42:00.000+08:00

Well,after all those busy days I having since last month..I finally get the results...haha.Firstly I was very2 glad that i am able to enter the school here...it will be UTAS(University of Tasmanian) and of coz it is at Jakarta haha.That day i was accepted..I was very happy as actually i was not allowed to enter as i have not took the o level but an ang moh (bule) who seems to be coming from australia just to come for the open house at jakarta decided to interview me..haha one hour of interview erh!! haha but it seems he was impressed by my way of replying his questions and in the end he decided to accept me muahahaha but not yet...he gave me a test paper too..well it's english haha...no sweat!! When the ang moh read my essay...without hesitation he said ''welcome to UTAS'' WTH the way he said like so..err no comment haha..but i should be glad..I finally able to go for further studies...

So,the foundation studies will start on the month of October lol still 4 months to go and i can spend lil more time with this lil singapore haha..auuw everyone in singapore should thanks me for this haha..nah!..After i boguht the Motorola RAZR V3i Dolce&Gabbana now is my brother turn to get a new handphone..supposedly it should be his birthday present from the whole family..haha aaw what a nice family we are and guess what he got...its the priceless Nokia N80...wah haha so fortunate of him haha anyway talkin bout b'day present...i have not celebrate b'day for 4 years haha me and my first younger bro have not receive any gifts for long time and we never expect gifts too haha..sad rite? but we already used to it...we just think that b'day is just a normal day..we can be glad already if people can remember our b'day haha..anyway an early happy b'day for my bro Ferdy =)...the black N80 is yours..

Anyway i still got one more gadget to have..and it's gonna be an iPOD lol...but the real stress is whether i should buy the iPOD nano 2gb or the iPOD video 30gb gaarrh i like nano coz its portable and light but i like the iPOD vid coz it is cool haha but it seems that i do not need such a big memory space as i am not as crazy as my bro that put 2000 songs and still continuing in his 60gb iPOD video..haha...next! White or black?actually i prefer white to black but since that damn Sotong just bought white nano i think i gonna choose black,rather than that sotong kill me with her tentacles for copying her..gah sotong sotong!

Anyway i must declare that Maureen from Leonies Ten-oh-Five is now nicknamed as CUMI...now everyone can call her miss Cumi haha..nice name hurh? BUT i dun understand why she called me squid and that reminds me of the spongebob's squidward lol..anyway i dun have that long nose pls so squid not a good one haha..If not you can call me Shinichi Kudo..thats a more suitable anme for me haha....anyway good luck Maureen a.k.a Cumi..

Singapore here i come!!!

2006-07-05T09:09:00.000+08:00

When i think back bout those days i've been in Singapore..it consist of both pain and happiness.Yah, i was going to say that i am leaving Singapore..erm yah maybe 90% as i still need to take the entry test at jakarta.Well i hate to admit that many of my friends misunderstood me that i am going home because of a person..i noe it's a coincidence that that person will be going to jakarta at the same time with me too..but since it's hard to explain to others through mouth to mouth..i tried to explain it through this blog..

Firstly,i decided to go back jakarta to study as parents already insisted me on studying at there..as nowadays certificates or whatsoever are not realli necessary if you are going to get a good job and earn lotsa income in indonesia as majority of them are merchants or somehow we called them entrepeneurs(sorry if i mispell it)..yeah i can admit i hate to work at office..i prefer ordering to being ordered..so i make up my mind to be closer with my parents and able to get some skills and experience from them...

Secondly,it's not that i am talking bad to those who are in the same situation with mine, i mean those who are taking the N lvl..unfortunately...n lvl can't be used to enter some foundations or pre-u...and to think about it we need to waste another one year of studying..my parents are really concerned bout this since i came to the normal stream..but honestly my friends...the normal stream aren't that bad though full of biasity..they doens't know how potentially we are..it's all about future not the current.We can get better jobs than those who might be better educated..take example of my father who unable to continue to study university due to money crisis in his days..but as long you did not give up..there is always a solution..it's all about ''proofing''...

Thirdly,I believe separation will make me stronger and a better person..i noe it's painful...everyone here in Singapore..either singaporeans or indonesians or whoever is...they are the one who changed me...those who already been my friends for so long will know how much i changed from being a lonely and quiet person..thinking back to those times...i was a misery..not being active in public is wrong..and i learnt that...oh yah whoever in my class there is a person like this too and that person need a change.But my eight years in Singapore seems to come to a conclusion...

Fourthly,I am tired..i wan to take a new style of studies...a study that more to be used at future...though i will miss my fave Chemistry and Social Studies...but for my own good..i will take a step further..i will not forget the time with my classmates when we were having healthy competition of test marks..ooh how fun is that...there is no jealousy but it's all envy and that will motivate us to score better..thanks to my classmates.Anyway back to new studies topic..i might be taking management mass comm...and i will look further on that...but actuali i prefer to take pshycological..being a pshycologist...of coz being a psychologist is one of my dream job but unfortunately this job don't really make great income...but just to tell ur all...being psycholosgist is something when u are going to read others mind and understand more of people..it's always been my habit to observe people..and i learnt alot..from pain to joy..Oh yah not to forget...when u heard people's problem.. u will be able to learn somthing new from them.How fun being a psychologist is..though i might not be taking that studies...i will learn myself and i want to be a much better and more charismatic person...

Fifth,this one is complicated..and i am going to tell my own weakness too..I decided to leave Singapore as i was going to be a new person..Why? I thought i already changed? but to think about it there's somthin i haven't change since from small..I am too soft to girls..yah of coz since from small i always think that girls might be weak but they are the most respected gender,being a mother is something great and after all we men who have greater strength are used not for violence but instead we use it to protect.I know this is weird but i always notice i might be a bit bias regarding gender...I think that by leaving Singapore i can forge myself again to be a better person by changing totally..i will be more cold towards girls..i mean not as soft as before..though i noe it is mean but this is the only way to be a better person..all my female friends should have notice how soft i am to girls...i am sure that many will think that i am just a man whom loses to girls..well all right now it's time to change...i never know that my thinking of female as being the most respected gender can be quite complicated...oh well i gotta be more colder in the new environment..especially to girls......girls who might offended by me after this..i will be terribly sorry..it's for my own good..

These reasons is somthing that i already thought thoroughly during the past one week..i called my parents and talk about it and we came to an conclusion that i will be going to singapore..of coz my mother might surprised to my sudden decision..but after i explain that..i gave my mother to think as of coz i cant lie that n lvl cant be used for entering pre-u later...i just told everything to my mum and dad...and make them decide...though i also told them how unwilling i was to leave Singapore but for my own good they decided that i need to go back..even my dad already explained why i need to go back..everything it's all bout being better person..

I am doubt that this might clear any misunderstanding..but really i already promised to myself
and i even already told eric that every gossips or whatsoever will be forgotten when i reach jakarta,the only thing i can do is ignore as long i am in the right..no matter what others says..but I just hate to admit it that i really against and hate that misunderstanding...school in indonesia starts at 17 July..and of coz i will be going back at the same time with that person...i talked with eric and at least i am relieved.But since this misunderstanding..there's been lots of ignorance happened...i dun wan to really explain further.me and that person already in a big gap..and there's never any feeling towards that person...it's all that i'm just bit too soft to girls and thats it..I will try to be more cool headed and i will make this as a lesson..

I will continue this somehow..i hope that many might be able to read this and understand why i am leaving...life is interesting hurh...

2006-06-27T16:08:00.000+08:00

Even in the darkest time,when separation is a must..

2006-06-18T20:00:00.000+08:00

Pheew..today was so tiring but indeed very satisfied.
I bought lotsa clothes,pants and jackets.If i'm not wrong i already bought more than 10 clothes..6 pants(including jeans) and two jackets.Oh yeah i even bought a pair of new reebok shoe for myself.Oh and lastly three perfumes yay its calvin klein haha.
After i went home...my mom call some people to massage..yay just nice my back ache haha anyway its a very ''brilliant'' day i should say

2006-06-16T18:46:00.000+08:00

I've bought everthing that i need to buy for my friends already..here's the list:
1.Bought presents for Daria's bday
2.Bought mp3 cds for my brother
3.Bought blazer for my brother(bought one for myself too)
4.Bought dvds for wanling
5.Bough shikun some games

2006-06-13T19:30:00.000+08:00

My eyes looked small in this picture..haha anyway i think it's too narcist..anyway taken during Sunday's formal party.
Today again stucked in my room playing computer...
But the good news is my parents gonna buy me new clothes of my choice this Sunday =)
Oh yeah not to forget about the pile of homeworks i left at Singapore lol...for sure i'm gonna be dead when school reopens.Oh yeah i should remind myself to buy Daria's present...lol gonna give her when school reopens..
Anyway Happy Birthday Cynthia..

2006-06-12T19:58:00.000+08:00

Monday..monday...another boring day at Jakarta.Well but at least I spent my whole day creating this blog and of course chatting at msn messenger..oops not to forget to listen Daria's singing haha..
My wallet is still waiting for me to use it..i have not spending anything at Jakarta...neither clothes nor pants lol...maybe this weekend or maybe tomorrow =) yeah i want new clothes and my bro already asked me to buy for him some clothes too..
After i finished the second Leonies Video...now i am thinking of making a new picture video...but what?
Any idea please tell me one lol....if your all want to see what kind of video is it just go to the link at the 4th link.
Now i am interested in making website..all right here i go again.....

2006-06-12T15:01:00.000+08:00

blame Daria or thanks to her its up to your all...she made me to create a blog..oh well.
but..finally here comes my first blog..lol..anyone want me to link you just msg..i will link you asap..thx