It's been awhile since I posted an entry bout my daily life..

Lol..well since my life here in Jakarta is kinda empty, bored of course. 85% of my daily activities is spending time in my room, being infront of my Sony Vaio notebook for at least 8 hours a day. Guess what? Now chatting in Windows Live Messenger is my only solution to overcome my stresses and pressure.

Since I went back from Singapore on that day, lots of confusion happened. To my brain, this particular confusion is a disaster. Love is out of the question, I won't mention that here, maybe next time, but oh well I gotta concentrate on my studies anyway. The main problem is unintentional jealousy, well I never like to have this feeling but damn it! it never goes away from me. This feeling usually reacts when I've heard my friends are having some outtings or even the smallest unecessary case to be jealous of, group study. Well, I'm happy that my friends are having fun.Yes they do laugh and smile, most importantly, having fun..but well nothing can be helped to stop this reaction of mine. I always hoped I hear nothing or worry about their fun but well I always updated myself, too fast indeed. Lol, but currently, I've been trying to calm myself down. Looking at the mirror reflecting my current life as a teenage boy whose satisfaction and fun are taken by some kind of unseen barrier. It's neither from parents nor friends, but loneliness. However, I've always think that if I update myslef on what's going on down there, I can feel that I'm there as well. Guess what? That doesn't really works.

I'm fine actually..

I guess I shall end it here, I'm gonna update bout my cold life next time, which I spent most of it staring in the mirror talking to myself, regretting...


You see, life is full of enemies..
Now, I'm facing the greatest of it..
Myself as the nemesis,
Creating my own catastrophe..


'' I should go and seek some friends..
But, they don't really comprehend..''

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